Now i have to sit and stare out of the car front windshield for another 2-hours til we are home…. i wonder if this leaving part ever gets easier!) But i have to say “mostly” because i had to leave my son behind.
#The days of my life gutenberg full
(And i am mostly full of happiness, love, and joy…. Yah for me! And we now travel home to see what tomorrow and the coming week holds.
I won’t be spanked or disciplined in any way for my bossiness. And we had a great family-together-Saturday today. Needless to say, i did manage to simmer down and find a “nice” way to give directions. But not because i necessarily intended to, but instead because of the authority was given to me. Then “being bossy” comes with the territory! It’s what you was implied when you said “You are in charge.” To me, that means “you need to decide and just tell us what we need to do.” Aka: bossy! When you put me in charge and you don’t want to make decisions…. In my opinion, if you want to be in charge, and make the decisions, i will let you do it every time. I WILL DECIDE! This is stupid to go back and forth without moving forward in any way whatsoever! To be followed by, “yah, I’m flexible and I don’t care.” i just hate standing around going, “what do you think?”Īnd then hearing, “I don’t know. i heeded the warnings and this time, i did tone it down. i can make decisions but still need to tone it down.Īnd some time later i heard, “you may have forgotten that you ought to speak a little kinder.”Īnother warning. “Well, you can do what you want, and use your power the way you see fit, but you may regret that later too.” To which David responded back, “yes, but you can say things in a kinder tone.” Let’s go!” David then said, “you are bossy today!” Then as i said, “ok Dad, next thing we are going to do is xyz. But i highly doubt it.Īs we didn’t have a plan for exactly what we would do, David said early this morning (after we were with our son), “you are in charge today. It’s hard to explain domestic discipline (DD) to grown adults, let alone to an 18-year old kid! i suspect our son would never understand or believe that i truly do consent to being spanked and that this is NOT some warped version of some sort of wife-beating.ĭavid and i tend to have covert comments between us, said in front of our son, that if our son thought about it too much he might figure things out.
In other words, our son doesn’t know Dad spanks me. While in my opinion, it’s good that he knows Dad is in charge and i defer to Dad, our son does NOT need to have a full account of what happens if or when i do NOT properly defer. i suppose he knows i defer to Dad and Dad’s decisions, but he has NO idea of our discipline factor. Our son really has NO idea of our D/s dynamic at all, which is by design. My heart is feeling full! (Although almost as instantly, as we leave to go home, a part of me is missing again and i wish i didn’t have to leave him there too! So maybe my heart isn’t “quite” full!!) Our son (like most men), wouldn’t actually have admitted that he was lonely and missing us, but as his Momma, i could tell from the way he was talking to me that he was. Our son was happy to see us and we had a good family day. His University is a 2 1/2 hour drive each way. We left early, spent the day, and i wrote this now as we are in the car heading home. It’s Saturday and we didn’t have anything else planned, and neither did our son. On a whim, we decided to drive up to see our son at his University.
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